The canadian DMV doesn’t sound too far off from that. thankfully unless some other issue comes up, I only need to go every 5 years to review my drivers license.

If you go on the quitting weed subreddit and look at the success stories theres lot of “i quit weed, then within a year I got a new job, met the girl of my dreams, achieved all my goals, and feel happy all the time now!” Like jeeze guys are you sure all that was from quitting weed?

I have definitely found myself much more easily depressed without it, my job sucks but dont know how to find a better one (I’m grateful to have anything in this economy tbh), and can’t get a date to save my f*cking life (I don’t even feel like I’m an unattractive guy, but the only single girls I interact with are co-workers who are all 10 years younger than me. and I get zero matches whatsoever on dating apps, those things are a total void. but where else am i supposed to look?). I barely have any social life which blows. It’s definitely enough to make me want to go back to weed, but would that actually help with any of these issues? if I’m honest, probably not, but at least I’d feel better about things.

part of the reason I quit in the first place (besides spending too much money on it) was because I started to get bad reactions whenever I smoked which was freaking me out. no idea if that would come back if I started again or not. My tolerance would be gone so I have no idea how I’d even react if I were to smoke now. But I felt like my mind was way more active when I was smoking, I could think of tons of creative things easily, not get stuck in ruts, and feel way more emotions. When I had a good high going I’d just get idea after idea after idea, one thought would lead to the next and so on. Now my mind is surprisingly quiet which I suppose isn’t really a bad thing, I’ve been doing a lot of meditating and getting pretty decent at it, but still it’s pretty boring, and it’s much harder to unwind after stressful times.

NP - Steve Reich - Music For 18 Musicians (this would probably be epic high)

This is the drumkit I ordered. My upstairs neighbor has been bitching about me playing music at night lately which has also been really discouraging for me, she better not be able to hear me banging on this thing through the floor cus I will play all night If I’m able. I havent played in almost a year and a half and am really itching to start bashing away again:

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